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Aftermath

My lost mind
Like a flame cupped
Saved from air
Within an enclosed chamber
Of vacuum

Character………
Like the clothes
Hung on the peg
Empty
Worn and then hung
Awaiting a new form

The undergarments thrown around
Like the daisy
lying next to chappals
within a chamber of vacuum

The naked legs
Spread apart
Like the clothes hung
Awaiting a new form
Disturbed from the noise
Of the fan
And jabbering of the strangers
Awaiting a new form
Form?
Formless
Like the ash blown away
Somewhere within the vacuum
Contained but unseen
And poetry on a used envelop
Awaiting a new form

Ash,smoke,oxygen and carbon dioxide
All within the vacuum
Awaiting a new form.

(27.7.2001)

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Catching trances
To allude visions
Only to get the self
Illusioned

Concocting gestures
For burning flesh
Hiding emotions
To safeguard

Collecting ashes
Blown away sounds
Woven within the breath
Entangling exchanges

Mesmerizing confessions
To delete boredom
Safeguarding the self

Within a vacuum
Of
Entrances and exits
Lying at the axis
Latitudes and longitudes
Spilling over in desperation

With objects
flying around
disturbing
and inspiring.
2001

Love?

clogged emotions
like a dormant volcano,
pretending
A cardiacity of love
rupturing notions
where loving is suicidal
and society a criteria
emotions drowsed
and left in desperation
a submission of self
whipped with fear
losing faith
-a cardiacity of love
invoking denial
all for the cause of love
making diversions,
a choice of self
Self?Social?
belonging to society
or belonging to self?
Clogged emotions
-a dormant volcano

a cardiacity of love.

2002

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Just meaning(less)


Blank documents
Which document the thoughts
Meaningless-
Yet meaningful
Overwriting
To write over the past
Like one nerve on the other
Causing cramps
To gain sympathy
Meaningless-
Yet meaningful
Ugly but tolerable
Beautiful but dumb
Like the last water droplet
Licked and left dry
Saving in the memory
Never to go over
To record a number
Or maybe
To break a record
Self created
Self appropriated
With numbers numbered
And lectures delivered
Meaningless-
Yet meaningful
Like coded text
Which uncodes desires
Clothed with drab
Covering distortions
Of mind and body
Ignoring the soul
Like the priest
Praying for money
With a dagger for protection
To stab his desires
And pretending an utopia
Meaningless-yet
Meaningful

Meaningful?
Just meaning(less).

2003

The wounds are hungry......

Can they?

The wounds are hungry and so am I
For creativity, for rational
To re-establish themselves

No don’t tell me to go back
For the ground has been razed
Razed with precision
And razed with relations

Nothing can re-establish itself
In that way

The way it happened

The way it killed
The way it killed emotions
The way it killed faith
The way it killed

And created living dead
Alive at times
And dead at times

They say time heals………

But what if the wounds want to re-establish themselves
Or is it a myth to believe that they have healed?
Have they ?
Or can they?
1/30/2006


SOUNDS


Zooming in sounds
That suppress expressions
Scrubbing away fears and blemishes
To keep the beauty
intact

Conscious minds
Drunk with fear
Beholding, apprehending
The estimations

Bold letters
Compelling meanings
Out of
Relations-created and existing

Cogitating faiths
Own and auxiliary
Rejecting only to accept
Creating paradoxes
Of hope and blind faith

Desires-
Clogged and suppressed
Buried beneath the crux of nucleus
Searching for sympathy
Searching for elevated pedestals
But never surfacing

Evading connectivity
Inducing
Diffracted communications
Of honeyed pain
Dripping away
The molted lava
Of ash and smoke

Evading sounds
Suppressing emotions
Searching a fullstop
And finding a pause.
6/6/2003


SALIVA



The footprints of saliva
causing bruises
embedding commotions
deleting notions of……
sweating breadths

diverting paths
creating illusions
making life an illusion itself

darts flung all over
missing an illusioned aim
bombarding epitomes
and impulses
creating new epitomes
hitting and questioning
doing acts in a frenzy
hitting and questioning
like ash on a rigged surface
asking dilemmas

dampened emotions
searching warmth
moist and fungal thoughts
forced and undigested
with blood and extracts
intellectual
and physical
bruising containers
of the thought and body

penetrations scratching
causing to pause
leading ……..
trances,
contractions,
and extractions

bombarding an aftermath
etching the thoughts
again and again
with lubrications to ease
that cause rashes
seeping inside
leaving leftovers
forced and undigested

illusions
footprints
forced and undigested.