knots and crosses

the pretty pictures nailed the walls

the hammer hid the wood

quietly they tiptoed the still life aside

the colours merged a gray

the paints dried into froth

and algae mounted aside

make way for the damp

the feet won't slip this time

baroque it all became

and the sweet peas dried up

unexpectedly it all happened

thud thud thud...

the apple pies became a cake

and strolled on the by-lanes

chewed with tongues

hopping on pebbles

gathering the dust along

thud thud thud...

hug hug hung

the tightness it loosened

stole a few kisses

all tied up in knots and crosses...

without expectations...

poetry lay all scattered around
in nooks and corners
and underneath the guises
sometimes the colours mixed well...
she looked for clues
now and then
trying to stitch
time by the seams...
it created ripples
in between the comas and exclamations
without expectations...
somehow it seemed
the plan would work well
along the boundaries
and the shores...
all could be filled
with the aching smile
licked with sand
sung to lullabies
combed to perfection...
hung on the wire
trailed to the park,
hopping and skipping
some notes in between...
without expectations.

hurt no more

the lover got replaced

by the golden flakes

nothing hurts now anymore

no more flights of curiosity

no more butterflies in the jar...

just some lies buried in the folds

some bangles entangled in strings of beads

musings typed

with the dental pain

puffs inhaled

and rejections unexplained

...keep your kisses sealed intact

this breathe is not for you

not now

no more...

the faithfuls returned

in exchange for money

......

nothing hurts anymore

Summer of Vienna

whole day the want went on
in the wait of the lover
it was a Japanese dream in the summer of Vienna…
the rain drizzled and the umbrella purpled
innocence slept a few more dreams
the clouds greyed soon
whole day it went on…
the kisses came wet and soft
the nipples became smooth
some love bites they ached
and the heart skipped a beat
they drunk each other,there under the shower
whole day it went on…
till the moon threw its light
the sun has gone down-she said
and very quietly,the dreams woke up
more softly they flew.

I wasn't hard to please

Why you failed to come back to me
I wasn’t hard to please…
A bunch of flowers now and then
A short poem now and then
A hug everyday
A sweet nothing at times
A potrait out of time…
No,I wasn’t hard to please…
Just the usual stuff
Not an intellectual debate
Not a thesis on love
Just your poetry
Or a love note hidden
No,I wasn’t hard to please…
A few smokes shared
A few collaborations
A few beers drunk
Dead conversations over dinner
Why did they weigh so much?
Why we moved away
Being so close
No,I wasn’t hard to please
What do I do with the gift now
Its all too late and gone by it seems
So what was missing?
Not a park facing house
You knowing my needs,
Was what I wanted
When hate overpowers
A love hate relation
What is left?
To love…
Or hate…
I don’t know what to do now
For love, I never felt

Pink Legs

the aura you failed to see,
it flew a few miles yesterday
with pink legs
and peacock feathers...

you shrunk in image
since last I saw you
your spirit too had changed...

a sweet hug
and a peck on the cheek
oh why we failed at that...

the breeze from your blue window
oh don't blow so hard

can't be myself anymore...

the smile has shifted
from center to the right
looks a bit odd now...

before the taste could touch the lips
the kisses were typed too soon

too soon you came
and left too early
that's why the lump remains...

you knew how mixed up you were
before you could handle the embrace
yet you came my way...

what do i do now mon ami
the dresses lie folded as new
and the pink has faded away...

No more..

the soft nibbles
and sweet nothings
no,
i don't remember any of it.
just walk out
and shut the door
no,
i don't need you.
don't try to amuse me
the laughter died some time ago
it mocked me with your stares of deceit
and the pun peeped,well trained
hardly had i recovered from the stitches
they got punctured again...
no,don't ask me
to sit and stay a little while
yes,i've had enough...
enough to forget you
enough to move forward
...just walk away now,will you
for your dues you have lived...

Alphabets…

for long she awaited
the arrival of the alphabets
in the small yellow envelop...

no,none came her way

and then she glanced,
a little on the past
the colourful notes she drew once,
a few one night stands
came to her mind
while some she chose to forget...
some lovers they visited her
now and then
after a few drinks alone...

so what haunts you now my dear?
as if failures you haven't seen
try living this heartache for now
for he promised light at the end...

this too shall pass...

For now the storm has subdued
It told me it has lost its strength
The obstacles have changed places
And the pawns have broken down…
The vapours of humidity
Added a few flavours
So now the air is suffocated
More than before…
Yet the winds whistle sharply
And the arms gather themselves
Wrapped in bandages
With the cotton jutting out…
The legs melted with the steam
And the peels lie scattered around
Smelling of flesh
Marinated in soil…
O get up and collect yourself
….for this too shall pass.

From the other night…

the residues of the other night
when the screams jumped the balcony...
and these walls witnessed it all…
I have them packed

they still resonate
the ugliness and your hostility
and the pretense of yesterday

the shouts,I no longer panic
the awe has faded away
and I have made my own recipes
of hiding some and seeking some

nothing affects me
for I don’t know what you murdered
through these palms
much has slipped away…

it was all all right
just till the other night.


So,
Let me pick up the strands once again
And you,
stop by and collect
your leftovers
for I can't hold them anymore
the screams packed inside
are trying to come out.

Sweet Pea

The spring of sweet peas
Smells different each day
Short and sweet
At times,it chooses to look the other way

Oh,don’t worry about the flood of emotions
This disorder I was born with
Many tried to cure it
For I too was colourful once

I left the wild,a while ago
And there,by the waterfall they grew
The sweet peas this spring,this summer,
Why they look anew

The waterfall froze strangely
One day in october
From then on the valley bloomed
The fireflies stayed on from twilight till noon
And the rabbits spread their wings
The sheep grew another pair of legs
And sprinted all around

Stay put now, my sweet pea,sweet pea
I won’t take long…

moth balls

The stillness of now is replete with silence

Stuffed with moth balls

The mouth aches



How much longer?

Do I hold onto?

This oblivion between us?



When the stares are empty

And glazed

For I don’t know,how many layers were done



Everything seems…so long ago



The entangles

Remain entangled

The coldness has won over



I fail to see you now



Now that we measure

Our distance in once upon a time



With pauses aplenty…

unfinished

Underneath the brown

When you touched me with yellow

The blue mark-

From the frozen red

is still there..



late at night

when the chirping has died

the hand curls

filled with blankness

its been a while…



the love was left out too long

unattended, uncovered

it betrayed self defeat

and forged a few smiles



marinating the soul

with feelings unwanted

and desires displeased

unfinished…

Random random random

The drunken poetry

Spilled a few vomits

Though it smells of vinegar

The radium shines through it



Random random and more random

The chaos is spread neatly



Unnerving at times

The suffocating emotions

That returned with a thud

Tied from the elastic band

This hurts more than the absences



Random random and more random

The chaos is spread neatly



Now and then the nerves pop out

Strangely the blood is blue

Not from royalty

But the bitterness which brew

For so long…

How long?



Random random and more random

The chaos is spread neatly



The cures were smashed

And covered with muck

Still the blood oozed out

Sometimes blue and then turning black

It should have stopped by now

The flow drop by drop…



Random random and more random

The chaos is spread neatly now.

sobbing echoes

So how will you sum up now

The partly functional dysfunctionality

When the wheels got rusted

And yet we pushed it along

Ignoring the screeching sounds…..

Leaving me to clean up the marks

Caused by the small thorns

You planted here and then

They pain at intervals

Beneath the upper layer….

I tried to knot it hard

But was fooled by the magnitude

As the fabrics got all mixed up

The silk got the worms along

And the cotton got the seeds….

When you mocked the first smile

Of her innocent sleep

She cries at time

For her warmth is pure

And the nursery rhymes are mixed up…

Once again

I am trying very hard

But the labyrinth conceals the door

And I knock on the same walls

Again and again….

Though the sky shows a rainbow

It left out a few colours

And sprinkled the dust

There where I wrote your name

With affection and dejection….

Why did you cry all by yourself

When we could have shared the tears

The sobbing echoes creep at night

Wandering between the closed doors

By morning they fade away….

Blending the rainbow

Without rain.

imbalance

keep writing he said
but the pen broke down a few miles back

no she couldn't give up
the want to breathe again

once again she picked up some traces
some strings had been let loose

the silk was too much to handle
it was as fragile as her nerves

and then it happened
the chemical imbalance
and enabled her to fly again.......

the mosquitoe

the mosquitoe net has mothed away
with all the holes intact...

religiously it visits me
the mosquitoe
reminding me of its presence

at night
when i should be covered in love bites
the mosquitoe enjoys my flesh...